its too late

Thursday

2007-04-12T20:02:00.000+08:00

Its a Thursday today and it poured precipituously to the extend that the plants outside my class ended up getting more than they can drink. I've always adored rainy days. They make the essence of any given day seem void of existence and a mere breeze to get through. Perhaps visualise 56x78273 using a calculator..or ER....how about sex with lubricant. Lol. its a tad bit graphic for some but u get the jist of it all i presume. Bottom line? Its a pretty good day.

Maths never fails to dampen the spirits of those who fall within its shadow and today was no exception. Lol i had a bout of self-induced, teacher instigated verbal diarhoea. Halilah was reprimanding us in a manner of utter abhorrence for our lack of mathematical basics, but no worries, im sure that abhorrence was reciprocated to the last drop. Anyway she was scolding us for not knowing how to approach the differentiation questions. Irony is that we're all F9ners in that class. WTF was she thinking? haha. Anyway what i said to her is history and of little importance anymore. But though the severity of everything, all ended candid nonetheless. Oh did you know halilah spelt backwards is the same word? Amazing.

We learn something new everyday. While awaiting the subsiding of the rain, ruiwen, abby, weirong, me and leon decided that the beautiful day required a more twisted ending. And so, they prank called Jie rong. Weirong in the process uttered sounds so amazing and thoughts so twisted that im....im...shocked. If i told you guys what she said it might just about excite the easily tickled. It was more of the mock voice she adopted that totally killed the competition. Haha. I think Leon has a video of it. Weirong wants it destroyed badly so i'd suggest getting yours soon. For a limited time only. Toys and accesories sold seperately. Im speechless. It was just LAWL.

Im hearing akon on radio, and i cannot help but wonder how stupid he sounds. Im sorry to akon fans out there. Just happens that my most instinctive reaction to his "music" was to snort, laugh and go "wtf".

All is well.

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Feature

2006-12-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

Bury your head
Saosin

Bury your head,
Bury your head,

I was feeling fine, you'll be coming clean tonight
And I'll be falling down with you once again
Call me your valentine, call me once tonight
And I haven't said it's okay

The things you said, I'm rehearsing them,
The things you said, I'm rehearsing them,

They went back on us(Until his eyes rolled back couldn't step it up)
I could know when to come on to it
It's the thought that emerges(Take back couldn't step it up)
I could never love your eyes have changed.

Bury your head, and the child smashed you down
And the psalms will soon recall me again
Fall down below
I'll sleep tonight when you're okay
And I haven't said it's okay

The things you said, I'm rehearsing them,
The things you said, I'm rehearsing them,

They went back on us(Until his eyes rolled back couldn't step it up)
I could know when to come on to it
It's the thought that emerges(Take back couldn't step it up)
I could never love your eyes have changed

They have been the ones who've seen enough
This is what you call love?

They stole my lies,
Sold right and all,
They wandered around and round my mouth,
They stole my lie,
Sold right and all,(Stole it all, Stole it all),

They have been the ones who've seen enough
They went back on us(Until his eyes rolled back couldn't step it up)
I could know when to come on to it
It's the thought that emerges(Take back couldn't step it up)
I could never love your eyes have changed

You'll be coming clean tonight

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Faggoty fuck fuck

2006-12-25T21:36:00.000+08:00

Omg. I missed it all just by one small moment. Damn it. It feels so utterly spat on and you cannot believe my abohorrence for the situation I am in. Makes me want to growl and bite anything animate.

But then again, it isnt such a bad thing i suppose. I could deal with it. Still, right now I'd rather not talk about it. In any case, school's starting in a week and homework seems to have lost itself. lol. i really wonder what next year is going to be like. Deep within me a bubbling urge to surpass my present standards seem potent enough. Yet, my fears that these exuberent feelings of self-upgrading are almost certain to unravel. Somebody needs to hit me with reality. Somebody needs to help me.

Would you remember me?
Would you remember me this way....

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For another day

2006-12-15T18:59:00.000+08:00

Hello. Today was good. The weather was beautiful and like i told some people, it makes everything in due course beautiful as well. I've done abit today, mainly packing but i suppose i've made more than the usual number of people happy today which is good i suppose.

In any case, im leaving for winter sonata land in a couple of hours. The entire prospect of being in a tour with korean drama loving people isnt too inviting but the weather and skiing isnt a bad idea. lol. lets just hope i have fun. Sigh, im gonna miss my dearest so much these 7 days. My phone cant work in korea haha. Oh well

Till then, i suppose my blog is dead again. Bye

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Destined for isolation

2006-12-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

I've figured over the course of my youth that some things were simply meant to be left untouched. Its sad, but for the being that tries, his returns of detriment make the whole equation a pointless and utterly unfair thing to go through. I've let go of some of these things and now im happier. Lets hope they wont return. Sometimes i end up getting caught up between two states of longing, each pulling u from the other. However,the very core of you just seems unwilling to adopt either direction and soon you begin entertaining silly thoughts of a world where its composition comprises of only all the beautiful and mystifying thoughts u will find in either world. I know how this sounds really bizarre but to put it simply. Its really just wanting the best of both worlds without being bothered to actually go to it. Tada.

Its time for my personal mourning sessions.

You're a god.

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Brighter days

2006-12-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

The dark skies have cleared. Alas, away with the emo things and my bad mood. I've managed to clear things up with a particular someone and things are getting clearer and easier to deal with. Im feeling better as a result.

I caught happy feet with my family today. I wouldn't grant it the accolades that saw it soar to the US box office number one spot, but its still something watchable. Actually i found it too serious for an animation. And the message put across at the end of the movie has really nothing to do with happy feet. Its really a huge conservation issue hidden behind the image of a cute penguin's misadventures. The stars of the show weren't even who it was supposed to be. Stars meaning the characthers that actually gave the show some life. I wouldnt have watched it if i had to pay for it myself.

Phones are useless when the service providers fuck up the networks. I cant even get a messge to shearen. Screw it.

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On our way down

2006-11-29T21:58:00.000+08:00

Seems the more you think about something, the more it haunts you to your death.

Don't think so much, everyone says to you, but if only it was that easy. If only fixing our thoughts were as simple as the analogy that goes into deciding where to go for dinner. Unfortunately, we have to work through an entire neuro-system to get the answer we truly seek. See where we're going? One big round. You still have to think in the end.

those who would listen cannot be told.

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Feature

2006-11-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

The Theft
Atreyu

He bends and he breaks
If you give they will take away
His passion, his pain, his grace

He exhales,
A thousand black flowers explode
into butterflies as they're away

Rip them out, take them,
Burn to coals as they crush him
Leave nothing
that resembles a soul of a man
(See him numb, see him crushed)
See him numb, See him crushed

Rip them out, take them
Burn to coals as they crush him
Leave nothing
that resembles a soul of a man
(Leave him numb. leave him crushed)
Leave him numb, leave him crushed

Took the fire inside
One too many times
He's burning over and out now,
He flails
Up against the raging tides,

No more fights
Everything you ever wanted to see,
See it in his eyes
One more time, one more time

Climb down to test the waters,
My hands feel like they're rusting away yeah,
So I'll pace around like a lamb before the slaughter
I'll stay here as long as you let me,
Decisions been made obvious so I will return
Where I started I'll stay here
Unfinished
I'll wither away

Rip them out, take them,
Burn to coals as they crush him
Leave nothingthat resembles a soul of a man
(See him numb, See him crushed)
See him numb, See him crushed

Rip them out, take them
Burn to coals as they crush him
Leave nothingthat resembles a soul of a man
(Leave him numb, Leave him crushed)
Leave him numb, leave him crushed

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Fleeced of inspiration

2006-11-28T20:07:00.000+08:00

So, apparently my enthusiasm to resume blogging after such an expanded duration of time isn't nearly half as bold as the prints in my previous post. However, someone's words, although utterly irrelevant to this, inspired me to do this. I guess i have alot of catching up to do.

Holidays are here and along with it a sense of freedom should follow. On the contrary, none have. I fill my days with training, boardgame cafes and sometimes indulging in self-gratifying activities that would in the eyes of others, probably seem stupid. On top of all that, Shearens gone and not coming back anytime soon.

These few days, have been really......perplexing. Jamming's back to its old level of fun and thats great, and the emo weather is wonderful. Yet its because of all the fun that sinks me to greater depths. Perhaps its the withdrawal syndroms. Wait, im sure it is.

There are words i cant speak, and its all due to a break in monotony in my daily life. Blissful before it runs around you and sinks itself into your whole being. This is supposed to feel better. But i don't.

If you look into my archives you probably will find something on emo things and the ambiguous structures they adopt in this weather. Im feeling it now. They're everywhere. In dusk they permeate my dreams and at dawn they leave me writhing in hurt. None of it physical and all of it deep within me. It is riveting whenever dwellings of the past swagger into my view of thought, a lifetime passes me by, where every word tells a story and every line a tale.

I, a product of human degradation.

See me deeper.
You have what i need.

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2006-10-19T21:49:00.000+08:00

For revival sake.

Please do assume I'll dwell on this again tommorrow. Stay tuned.

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Emo weather

2006-07-31T19:47:00.000+08:00

Waking up to emo, rainy weather never seemed taxing for a minute. I might have even felt school would be fun and placating to go through. I have to stress that I do not feel this way about school very often. I guess school didnt turn out quite as perfectly as I had expected it to be, but the weather was therepeutic to say the least. Sitting in class an occasional zephyr would kinda blow my way and it would feel cold, but never raising the hairs on my hand. To me, it had a very settling feeling, a calming agent in its own manner. Having it blow upon me was much like a deep warmth spreading through me. Ironic it might seem, but for emo-inclined beings, dark skies, still winds and the impending rain can only spell bliss. I guess i need not say much more about why i felt that way. In any case, the whole scenery from my classroom took on a similar feel. The clouds formed up a continuous layer of black and from a distance, it appeared as though the dark clouds on the top and the slightly clearer blue sky below met at an imaginary horizon in mid air. There was even a swirling effect within the dark clouds itself. Like a very full sesame paste sloshed with a spoon. Even the air had a rather damp feeling about its composition. If marauding creatures and fantasy souls coexisted with us within the same place, today would feel as if countless emo things in various forms filled up the space not taken up by u and me, and on a day like that, they would gain enough strength to somehow appear touchable to people who believed in them. And these people would then be able to feel them in the most vague and ambiguous way. Which in this case would be the sensation left by the wind touching your skin. It would be as if those emo things were covering you in a warm emo blanket equipped with everything relievingly sad and comforting. If only i was correct about my little thesis. But well. Its just a thought. A good day to listen to So long, Astoria. It'd be reminiscent of something in our past that we missed out on. A sadness and a loss so powerful it stays within you indefinately, but yet its been long gone.

Im still feeling the after effects of an odd day at school. I still imagine the emo things by my side as a type this. It feels foreign, but good. In any case, Shearens not feeling too good. So just hope she gets well soon. Missing her to bits now.

Croon to me a song of longing.
Lift to me your greatest fear.
Tear my seams with guilt and scorn,
but give to me your mercy.
I wont be here much longer.

Till you get home.

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Feature

2006-07-23T21:03:00.000+08:00

Streetcar
Funeral for a friend

When theres a rub
We can talk for a while
But I have sweet nothings to say
You don't want me anyway
You don't want me anyway
So why? Why should I stay?

So goodbye to you and your life
Your new best friends
Your confidence
And I'll be here when you get home

Sitting half way
Away from no where
Praying for our lips to touch
Holding myself,
For a second
Just to catch a smile On this line.

So goodbye to you and your life(Two months, eight weeks)
Your new best friends
Your confidence (Turn my hours into days)
And I'll be here when you get home (When you get home)

So goodbye to you and your life (Two months, eight weeks)
Your new best friends
Your confidence (Turn my hours into days)
And I'll be here when you get home (When you get home)

(I can't feel the same about you anymore)

So just like you said it would be(It's never easy)
I can't feel this way about you anymore
So just like you said it would be(It's never easy)
I can't feel the same
I can't feel this way
I can't feel the same about you anymore(It's never easy)
About you anymore(It's never easy)
No... I can't feel this way
I can't feel the same about you anymore(It's never easy)
About you anymore(It's never easy)
About you anymore

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Smoking pepperoni

2006-07-23T20:37:00.000+08:00

Lo! Recording sucked i swear. We arrived at around 6.30. Eveyrthing wasnt ready. D-i boxes were spoilt and it took them an hour half to get ur started. Even then, we were working with malfunctioning equipment. Reagans amp sucked dick la. It was so old and was cranking up real bad. We have another session next week. I hope they'll have the initiative to prepare the equipment first. One thing im looking forward to is fish and chips. lol. The onion mayo at SIM is really good. Very cheap as well.

In any case, saturday was grand. I've never really felt quite as happy as i did these past few days. And its no surprise who makes me this happy. Anyway, i didnt go for the golden run. I accompanied my sis to the clinic instead. I even ran into Puja along the way. After that, it was photoshoot time. Jon needed some shots at the beach. Some emo shots i think lol. Imee and Wanfong modelled.

Seriously, I think these past 3 days have been really great. lol.

I like the smell of a non air con room which is kinda linked to an air con room. It has that warm staleness about it, yet not musty. Srcew.

Do u know me?
I think you do.

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now, now.

2006-07-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

I was pleasantly surprised on monday to find out that there wasn't to be any extra lessons after school cause of the 'o' level listening comprehension exams. Mondays never seem too good day cause its maths day. I hate maths. I've also begun to ponder and comtemplate the possibility that birth isn't a very fair thing. How come some people were born good at maths whilst others were better at languages and humans. Why this is unfair? Its subtle, really but think about it. A boy can beat a fellow peer at english and the humanities by a few marks each and he'd already be considered a stones throw away from the top score, but that peer just needs to beat him in maths and science and their overall scores are miles already put miles apart. And why? Cause whenever someone owns at maths, he/she owns by alot. I wonder why i wasn't born this way. Maths needs more hardwork, but the arts require depth and aptitude.

You must have figured im not the biggest fan of maths by now.

Anyway, recordings on tomorrow. Figured it would be fun. The studio, the volume panel, the direct line in. I think it'll be really neat. We might just cut out one song EP. lol.

Speaking of music, i've been put off quite badly by the amount of pop listeners there are out there. I don't have anything really against pop music, except that i think that its just a really huge overly publicised tune which wasnt penned by the singer itself. Tell me, its simple logic. If you don't sing what u write yourself, can you sing it with the best of emotions and is it really what your feeling, or is it just a lie? Its nothing isn't it?
That is another reason why i deviated to the musical concept and idealogy of a band. In bands, you write of life stories, of real experiences, of credible lyrical plots that people can relate with. In other words, they write their own songs. And when they sing it, they deliver it with so much more passion and emotions. Angsty, emo, or just anti-government. To a band, i think they biggest insult will be to be asked to lip sync their songs, let people write their songs or all the bullcrap like that. Crap that only pop singers will do. It just gives us an idea of why Kurt Cobain messed up Nirvana's live gig at top of the pops when asked to lip sync the song.

People think rock music is noisy and screamo. But where's the argument or comparison, pop music isnt even real. Its a manufactured thing, a business, a fraud, a stunt. At least my music allows one to be true to oneself. The reason why some never sound nice is cause we don't consier how you feel about our music and how much money we can make out of it. Its a passion and you cant buy that.

This is random i know, but someting i've been hoping to address for awhile. Im not instigating the pop culture, but here is a thought of mine. I know pop songs may sound nice, i admit that. But who and what would you rather listen to? Someone who sings of something he/she was paid to sing and knows nothing about the song itself cause they didnt write it themselves, or someone who sings of his life, his angst and abhorence, his life experiences all of which he penned himself, each line he recites is a reflection of reality. And how he crafts that line. Isnt it compelling?

Im sleepy. lol.

Recordings tomorrow, fun.
Recordings tomorrow, fun.

Nights.

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Bring me the pleasures that come with my age

2006-07-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

Okay im 16. UFOOOO!!!!

The world is done for.

Anyway i think this was a really great 16th birthday. For some reason I feel vaguely moved by some people whom i haven spoken to for ages. They still remember and thats preatty neat. I don't really know where to begin, but here are some people i wanna thank.

My kiddos nicole donna and nicholas plus jasmine for the whole cake idea.
Imee who stayed up till 12 despite a headache to wish me.
Abby, Jo, Kang, Boon and everyone else who sang me a nice birthday song.
Virnice, the da jie who never forgot about me.
Shanti poop and Clarisse for an interesting memory last year.
Gwen and Pristine
Darrence.
Cori and his cool phonecall.
Ying
Nikki my mei mei
Munshi
And last but not least, my dearest Shearen who made my day the most wonderful it could be. Love her to bits.

To anyone i left out, im really sorry, im kinda sleepy right now and i cant remember everyone. So nc-16 movies anyone? lol.

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so long farewell

2006-07-04T22:40:00.000+08:00

Hello its been awhile since i've blogged. I gather that it is a rather common to see blogs left dead in the wake of one's sloth. The only blog i see consistently updated everyday is that of imee's. My hats off to her. I wonder how she gets that energy and that enthusiasm to do that. Its either that or maybe her life is just way more interesting than mine. But then again, i doubt it lol.

Lots has come and gone. The gig was screwed yet mildly salvaged by a really nice message from a certain annabella that the boon family know. The day of the gig also ended in weird fashion. After seeing Pheros's(pressumed spelling) guitar disconnecting from his guitar, a group of 10 of us went for dinner at mad jacks. After which, plans of a comfortable bus journey home were thwarted by SO many indians getting on the bus. That was damn unbearable. Reached home feeling absolutely wasted.

So, in more recent happenings, school began! If im not wrong, I believe school wasnt so bad during the first week, after all, the winning of the best display band award kinda made everyones saturday. It was fun. I like it when the whole school turns out to do something really cliched and gay and yet seem so united about it. Fuck now i sound like a wuss.

Anyway i think that people with no interest to put effort into anything is so infuriating. Never mind if we arent good at something as long as we try to do it. But some people know they suck, and yet they dun try and because of that, they conveniently screw up people's day. And you know, those people who seem in every way incapable of doing anything wrong, but they nvr seem to do well in exams anyway. I wonder what they do seriously, they dont play, they dont hang out, yet their results are messed up. At least the bad boy who did badly in school sounds coherrent enough. Well i know people who are as useless as that, and they really get on my nerves. fuck u all.

Hais. the world is done for.

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Goodness gracious me

2006-06-02T14:28:00.000+08:00

Its been too long since i've decided to blog. Honestly, life sucks during the holidays. I have to go back for extra lessons for one week from 8 10 12 everyday. Its like seriously not working out man. To top of the perfect day, my goodness its HOT HOT HOT. The heat actually sedates me...plunges u into this stupor where u feel like doing nothing but go home. And so i go home everyday after school. For those who know me, this could be classified as a phenomenon. But yeah, just when i thought it was alright to wear black again. I've kept away from black for too long. This needs urgent attention. Urgent attention this needs. lol

Anyway. shearens back in indo and im all alone here. I miss her terribly. But she told me she misses me too so thats very sweet of her. She also found a cool phone where she can call me in singapore for free. That rocks la! I remember hearing that piece of news elated me considerably.

To the four of you guys who turned up at jamming. Thank you for your support. Winston came high actually, it was quite rare to see winston like this. He's usually the quiet and sobre one. Nomality takes a twist. I think we did pretty well, but i don't know what u guys think. Let me know if you read this kkz? Anyway in the wake of jamming drawing to a close, we decided to produce some never before seen footage. The details i shant disclose here. Ask zhang or jake if you all want to know the contents of this 3-part 64 hour 83 episode page turner. lol. Anyway, i got a sprained neck and justin got a swollen chin because of this. Reagan got err....sweaty. Too bad imee missed it lol. She had left much earlier.

So all in all the weeks been boring. Haven gone out at all. I need some excitement in my life.

I miss you too dearest.

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Still of the night

2006-05-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

It is still, still it is. Peering out my window at the neighbouring rooftops contrasted against a pale black sky with a perturbing orange glow outlining the shape of the house makes me feel, disoriented and un real. You all will probably not get what im trying to put across here, but to me, this scene simulates one of those night in the day kinda things. But then again, maybe its just me.

Anyway, I feel detestably tired. I don't have any lights on and the screen is really bright. Blinding.

So, with that i guess i should be going. To everyone who's felt bad about their results, let it go. The holiday awaits like a treasure chest of fun.

Blind.I was told to take care of you darling. lol.

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Mother's day

2006-05-14T14:03:00.000+08:00

Its sunday and its also mothers day today. I just got back from training. It's a bummer how im home now and not out doing some cool fun-tastic shit along with the others. Reminds me of the song homecoming/death of st jimmy. Greatly. Im bored, stoned and I have church in the evening. It totally seems uesless for sundays to exist for i seem to be doing more than a usual day while i should be slacking or sleeping. This cant be the first time im talking about this. But please excuse me. I need my occasional whining. I got tuition at 8am....wtf? on a sunday. It's like a pain in the ass, a thorn in the flesh, a sore thumb, something u dread and loathe for hours beforehand. You feel like sunday's gonna be armagedon. Hey! the implementation of a certain five day week system was partially to encourage family bonding during weekends. This is not working and this is why. For one, the teach less learn more thing is just a nicer way of saying " fuck it you on your own, the teachers cant help you anymore". But, as it were, it wasn't really a successful programme cause teachers, afraid that their precious students don't know enough to pass an exam which is totally crucial in securing our future in a big corporation yet otherwise rendered useless in our daily lives due to its largely irrelevant content. Yeah like what? I'm gonna be chanting formulas to myself in the bus. Like thats gonna get me anywhere. Anyway, the teachers, afraid that their students wont score for the big Os, cram the weekdays with extra lessons, mostly ending between 4-5. After this, homeworks gotta be done. Students sleep late, wake up early, feel wasted, head to school, displays a wasted attitude and submits wasted work to equally wasted teachers. By the time this reaches the weekends, everyones sleeping in due to fatigue, who's got time for family BONDING. And for those who have to wake up early, it just doesnt get much better. I symphatise with you all.

All in all, my point is that a five day week should be one where people study for five days for normal school hours and head out to play for the weekend. Teach LESS learn more. Does that national slogan give you the impression that BECAUSE we cant come to school on saturdays anymore, we have to make up for it on weekdays? That way, we're just being taught the same amount of things right, so whats with the slogan? Hmmm....but wait! it doesnt really matter. After the extra lessons on weekdays, we STILL have to go to school on satudays. It started out with only authorised personel being allowed into school for approved activities. But soon the number of classes held got so huge that they simply abolished the entry-for-authorised-people-only system. Teachers just started approving their own lessons. Result? A total contradiction of national ideas. Callously put, no action, talk only(NATO). Maybe the five day week is thriving in the other government sectors, but its definately crapping up in schools.

Hmm that felt good. Maybe im just being a grumpy and angsty teen who didnt get his time off on a sunday. But i think i've got my point.

I saved the fucks for another post, just in case someone from the government sees them and charges me for defamatory remarks and i get put in jail and plastered across the various media components, defamed, abominated, then i hit the 50 top people who hit the headlines list at the end of the year. Oh goodie. SINGAPORE HAS FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

The weather is so fine today, not too wet, cloudy with enough light, windy. Perfect. Wish you were here darling. lol. Missing you lots.

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One week

2006-05-09T14:40:00.000+08:00

It's been one week since you've looked at me......lalalala. Sorry. That was like half a like of the song one week by the barenaked ladies.

Anyway, the exams are coming to a close. Vuala! Just one more paper and everyone's gonna be oh so carefree. Imagine the beach parties, the midnight hangouts, 25 hour days, and all the " who gives a fuck about what the teacher says" attitude. lol hell yeah.

In other news, the weather has been really GREAT. gasps. The weather this past week has been nothing short of heaven on earth. Its so cooling everyday that when i stare hard enough at the DARK EMO sky at MID-DAY, i can see snowflakes falling. Sometimes i stare out of the window at the rain pelting down and i feel emo. With such fine weather, i think i'd walk to school with a hoody tommorrow morning. Maybe, i might even get frozen in my tracks. Oh wow! goodie. lol.

Ok so maybe the weather isnt so fine. Oh wait again, its not hot, its faaarrrking hot. Like u stare out the window and u gotta turn ur head away imediately cuz the sun burns ur eyes. I wish it would just rain. Pour damn it pour. At this rate, im gonna need a change of wardrobe contents. I happen to wear only 2 colours. Black and White(only when its too fucking hot like today).

The sun sends me into such a stupor im sedated. I shall leave now.

Bye.

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Oh my goodness!

2006-05-03T18:48:00.000+08:00

Oh my goodness. And so i was right about my previous post. Maths sucked the happiness out of me. To make it worse, paper 1 was actually relatively easy. For the first time in my 3 years of secondary school education, the unearthly thought " im going to pass my maths" actually suffaced. It actually felt real, like i could feel passing or perhaps even scoring well within my grasps. But...but, the fairytale ends with paper 2. The first question kinda stumped me on the spot, and not being able to do the first question is never the ideal situation in any exam. But what could i do? Its not like one of those history tests where u can actually bullcrap your way through an essay or come up with dramatic inferences of sources to show you've been hard at thought. Its maths! good golly! i'll say it again, its maths! lol. Anyway, paper 2 scared the living piss out of me( as billy joe puts it in bullet in a bible). I crapped it up as nomality would have suggested. But what is so perturbing is the difference in difficulty between paper 1 and paper 2. They were so starkly contrasting. Worse still, it demoralises us to the point of panic. I mean, one moment you've got hope, like a dream come true, the next you're struggling to finish thje paper. Its cruel.

Tommorrow brings with it the geog paper. Oh man. Had a great time out " studying" with shearen today. Haha it was one of the happiest ones to me. I don't know why. It just felt pretty good. Thanks for the day dearest. Love ya =)

Streetcar.

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Haha too soon

2006-05-02T18:52:00.000+08:00

Apparently exams are a breeze. So far i've done english, hisotry and chemistry. They were all barely taxing. Everyone thinks so too. I feel happy, relaxed, unperturbed. I wonder how long it'll last though. This fleeting romance with fun during exams. lol. Oh well, maths tommorrow and geog on thursday. Utter bullocks.

In other news, I find myself hooked on october fall. There's this freshness and youth in their music. Yet the question still remains. One hit wonders or lifetime achievers. I don't know. But then again, i dont care. There's bound to be other new bands coming up, providing me with that fresh, youthful sound of rejuvenation.

Anyway the days been pretty kind. A little drizzle around noon made the heat easier to live with. So yeah i hope tommorrow stays this way. I guess i'll go back to some maths then. This sucks. Bye.

Here are a few things to leave you with. E is for irritating, X is for extra, F is for physics, S is for ass, and L is for alphabet. I think its so fucking lame but nonetheless amusing.

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Fuck.

2006-04-23T00:33:00.000+08:00

Yeah. Fuck. Its a saturday night or rather a sunday morning and i have to worry about tuition in about 8 hours. Its the most crapped on shit i've experienced the whole week. Oh man everyone deserves that sunday off. It really don't make a difference from school if i gotta wake up at 7 to attend tuition. Balls.

Im sick and im sleepy. And those pills arent kind. Really.

Unfortunately, the day would have sucked anyway. I didnt get to see her, nor did i have a good jamming session and lastly neither did i manage to catch the band's gold with honours award. What a bummer.

I should get some shut eye before I wake up oblivious to my surroundings. Who knows? I might just walk into the path of a car. Ouch. cya all soon.

Congrats TK.

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Feature

2006-04-20T23:52:00.000+08:00

Second Chances
October Fall

I'm sick of second chances
Cigarettes turn to ashes
I'm standing under street signs
To know the places I've been my whole life
I watch the hours pass us
Another one burns to ashes
I'm waiting for your phone call
To come and save me so you can break my fall

I will stand outside, wait for you to come find me
I will keep on my light by my bed till you get home
And I won't sleep tonight, till you get home
I won't sleep tonight, till you get home

My bed light's burning brighter
Boiled like a boxed in fighter
You've got me fighting pillows
My eyes just won't close till you're at my side
The hours slip to morning
I see the sun coming up
I'm turning off the TV
I'm watching faster than you gave up on me

I will stand outside, wait for you to come find me
I will keep on my light by my bed till you get home
And I won't sleep tonight, till you get home
I won't sleep tonight, till you get home

I got your letters that you sent to me
And it feels like summer
But your far away from me
When I need you here

I will stand outside, wait for you to come find me
I will keep on my light by my bed till you get home
And I won't (I won't) sleep tonight, till you get home
I won't (I won't) sleep tonight, till you get home

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Oops I did it again

2006-04-19T21:10:00.000+08:00

I skipped geog lecture today as i didnt see the need to stay back till 4 for a subject a understand perfectly well. Sue me. Then, unfortunately i got

BUSTED!!!

But whatever it is, I did skip the lecture on my own accord and its only fair i get busted tomorrow morning. Man was it an almost successful attempt. Having deployed the neccessary precautions, I skipped merrily our of school with my dear shearen backed by my " brilliant" plan. Sad to say, the teacher called my name to answer a question. Result? There was no one by the name of David left to respond. Busted. What a fairytale of loser proportions. Oh well, another one for the dumps.

I don't like to get busted. But it was fun anyway. HAHA. Watch me die.

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The natball parodies

2006-04-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

Oh yes! No church today. lol. And whats best is thats easter sunday, and I do not have to attend church. I'm elated. Reason? Apparently my dad thinks that church is too crowded on easter sundays as its a combined service and lucky bitches who don't come to church on normal sundays decide to display their faith by coming. Thus, the crowd. Fortunately enough, my dad insists on church every week but spares us on easter sunday. Good daddy. Ask me, i think going to church ONLY on easter makes more sense. lol. Oh man, i think i've bought a one way ticket to hell. Oops.

Note: I like going to easter concerts like the one on friday, but church on sunday? Maybe not.

Anyway i was just visiting Jian and Winstons combined blog, and I suddenly recalled something hilarious that happened earlier this week. I have to mention it. Here goes. On monday while waiting for zhang, me and winnie were watching the netballers prance around the plaza. One geeky looking girl...er..., thing, was the topic of discussion."Wah imee ur juniours damn geek leh, look at ur GS", was our expressive exclamations. Imee confirmed later the girl was indeed weird.

So, during the match, the ball was thrown towards her, in a fleeting attempt to catch it, the ball bounced off the bottom of her palms, recocheted off her sheen and bounced away. Minimal impact. Almost embarrassed for her, I turned to Winnie wanting to say that for a netballer she really coudlnt catch. BUT, to my hilarious horror, as if to salvage what was left of her reputation, little rachel knelt down and clutched her sheen in orchestrated agony. Ouch!

This left me and winnie scrambling for support and gasping for air as we wailed in laughter. Soon after that, we were reanacting the painful scene to the rest of the netball team.What a parody! Our skit was greeted with laughter. Thank you. haha. Thoughts of filming for www.youtube.com have been considered.

Perhaps this literal explanation of the above event seem uninvoking to ur funnybone and almost boring. But for me, I had a good time telling you guys about it. It was a good, no, great laugh. Ah...the poor people whos antics are subjected to such degradation. Maybe they just need a place to stay. Perhaps a zoo or circus.

School's gonna be one hell of an obstacle to overcome tommorow. Goodnight.

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What a week

2006-04-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

Ah, its definately been some time since i've blogged. It seems that the hustle and bustle of the week has taken its toll on bloggers like me. Wasted. I really don't know how in fuck's name to go about recollecting the past 7 days but i figured that netball would be something pleasant to mention.

On tuesday we really worked hard for that J class win and we got it. Minor glitches and hostilities saw 3G deemed as lucky to win. But we went on to win 4-3 again in the finals. Against 3J again. So there we go, 3G'06 netball champs. Really big thanks to my team for the hardwork. Here lists our route to the finals.

3G vs 3F (10-0)
3G vs 3H (8-0)
3G vs 3J (4-3)
3G vs 3D (5-2) - semis
3G vs 3J (4-3) - finals

So there we go. Now a few shoutouts to the team.

Wang chao - Thanks alot for the gay shooting lol. 32 goals in 5 matches.
Evonne - Bestie in netball!!! Enthu girl.
Edward - Nice defence. The boy with no aim in life. lol.
Weiting - You did great. Take care of your knee. =)
Bernice - Thanks for the last minute help. You played really well. haha
Grace - The quiet girl who worked really hard. Thankew.
Jolene - And special thanks to you, though u played for only one match, you've been really supportive.

And last but not least, to the whole of 3G'06, for the great support you guys showed on our finals. Love you all. Its a great pleasure to be in this class with you guys. What started out as a really guiet and freaky bunch turned out to be pretty alright, really fun too.=)

In more recent news, I had a pretty excelled good friday, the weather was cool and wet. Blissfully surreal i must say. Shearen and I took a little trip to queensway just for fun and it made my day, really. So, a big thanks to my dearest as well.

Now its good friday, how good can it be right? We got to be at church and a nominal behaviour on my part was as immediate refusal to such an attendence. Churches usually have combined services and this packs the sanctuary to the core. I detest such a situation and i'd loathe myself for exposing myself to such a thing. Pleasantly, I was told i need not attend my churches combined " packed like sardines" service, but would rather be required to attend an easter musical at bethany independant pesbytarian church. The worship service was packed, but there was the concert. A supperb choir and songs expressively professed from jesus to god before the crucification brought me warmth and i teared a little. It was indeed a sad day. i couldnt imagine dying for someone. If i had to i'd do it, but for all the courage mustered for such a divine act, I'd keel over and weep in fear and agony. In any case, the concert's songs were deeply moving and i believe it captured alot of hearts. If there is another concert of such sorts next year, please remind me to invite you. lol.

For all the fun that preceeds, a day has to end. Its been a great week all in all and now I'm tired. Gonna get my pedal tommorrow so i guess thats pretty neat. i shall leave with something Justin once said.

" 2 lefts dont make a right, but 3 lefts do"

Tee-hee. How unnervingly corny. Goodnite.

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Its been awhile

2006-04-08T15:26:00.000+08:00

Yeah its been awhile since i've blogged. probably slightly over a week. Anyway its a saturday afternoon and my is the sky looking gloomy. But im not complaining, the rain really makes my day. Its just so emo i love it. Its best when the weather is gloomy, in a sense that it isnt actually raining but preferably after the rain. Water trickles down the walls of buildings and the occasional raindrops on your head come from roof edges. This should really be accompanied by the random low rumbling sound of thunder. Moderate wind and not the huge gusts. And like the iceing on the cake, You should be listening to a happy song and not an emo one. If you need an example of such a song, visit this site and enter it.

www.curiousgeorgemovie.com

Anyway, its on such days that you just wanna sit somewhere like the beach and talk to your loved one. Seriously, if a certain white witch plunged singapore into a hundred years of rain, or in the case of narnia, winter, I wouldnt be the one complaining. But then again, if good weather was to die for, I should just migrate.

In a nutshell, the weeks been pretty kind. Teachers hardly seemed persistant about homework and its been raining. The only negative effects registered was that a one day inter-class event has been extended to 4 days due to the consistent afternoon downpour. What a bummer.

On a random note, I feel hungry, maybe its just the rain that makes my stomach feel empty. lol.

I shall bid farewell on this note:

"Dreams are wishes you make while your fast asleep".

Scary. Bye

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Fleeting calmness

2006-04-01T09:52:00.000+08:00

Im dunking oreos in milk right now waiting for the repeat telecast of Arsenal vs Juventus to commence.

Anyway, yesterday was definately a beautiful day. I had never that way before. For a whole week's worth of school suffered, I finally had the chance to spend the whole day with shearen. As when it seemed things were just perfect, it rained! WooHoo. I wont enter details of such a nature, but altogether, yesterday was as awesome as good days can be. It honestly felt like there was no tommorow and I was absolutely carefree with nothing weighing my heart down. It felt similar to listening to Champagne Supernova on a sunday morning. Pure bliss.

To shearen, thanks for the day. love ya.

Apparently, its april fools. And cruel pranks, jokes and stuff of such sorts have already been catching unexpected victims. So beware. lol. The world is so unkind, I got tricked about half an hour after i woke up. I did likewise to another. Oh dear.

So spread the love and the fun of april fools. Not that theres going to be much left after the cruel pranks. But oh well, have fun anyway.

I shall feature Champagne Supernova in light of its therapeutic effects on my day yesterday.

Bye.

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Feature

2006-03-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

Letters To You
Finch

Can't you see that I wanna be
there with open arms
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone
Get me through this one

Do you notice I'm gone......?
Where do you run to so far away.....?

I want you to know thatI miss you,
I miss you so
I want you to know thatI miss you,
I miss you soI

'm writing again These letters to you
aren't much I know
But I'm not sleeping and, you're not here
The thought stops my heart

Do you notice I'm gone..........?
Where do you run to so far away.....?

No more looking I have found home

I'm gone away...
I'm gone away...

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I wish for freedom

2006-03-19T20:18:00.000+08:00

Arriving home from across the causeway felt particularly boring and perhaps a little sedating. My wants revolved around the deepest desire to tear off what seemed like a layer of tightening skin and to see my darling. I was gone for only two days, and yet for the sole reason that i couldnt be with shearen, It felt very much simillar to two weeks. Some may think i'm crazy, but please do hold your comments. When your attached, you'll blessedly step into love and then missing ur other half will be cruelly inducted into your love life. Its bitter-sweet, really.

The rest of the day, History.

At this prominently forlorn juncture in mine and the majority of the schooling population's lives, I would like to take the time to talk about school. So, although its only been a week since school has ceased to torture us in every way possible, I find myself alien to it now. Perhaps its just been the sheer amout of fun i've been exposed to, but right now, i cant remember how going to school really feels like. I cant relate to it one bit. I feel like tomorrow would be my first day at school, and almost immediately, I'd be mercilessly thrown back into "our second home" to STUDY. Like oh god, fuck me.

I pressume alot of people would be sharing my sentiments on this "sensitive" issue. So here's a shoutout for you. FUCK SCHOOL!

With that, I guess its time for all of us to be good little children and go back to our occupations, awaiting the next time we can all come out and play. Bleah. Cant imagine the massive influx of irritated and depressed kids coming to school tomorrow.

Feels great to have you.Nothing is better than doing nothing.

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Hello, farewell

2006-03-16T00:58:00.000+08:00

Farewell to all and to the rest of my holidays. I'll be departing on the journey to find cooler lands to thrive in in a mere 5 hours. lol. Ok, I'm just going to malaysia. I'll make my return on saturday. Shucks.

To my beloved Shearen, I love you very much and i'll miss you and think of you. Be strong. I'll be back before the saturday dusk. Lots of hugs. =)

Fonder and fonder we get. Great.

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Uniquely Singapore

2006-03-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

If there was something that put Singapore on the global map, it would be the 3 fauna parks. Namely, the Jurong Bird park, the Singapore Zoological Gardens and the Night Safari. In case perplexed you are about my sudden interest reagarding Singapore's attractions, I have just spend 10 hours in both the bird park and the night safari. Excellent fun. I have to commend the bird park for the excellent " Pelican chit chat". A brief yet adequatly educational introduction to the 7 species of pelicans. Bucket-loads of fish emptied, a little bit of hands on feeding sessions. Good fun.

Tired and partially wasted from walking at the bird park, the night safari displays brought back the glint in my eyes and made me go "Wow". Scattered across the front porches and porch-island on the safari were paper covered wire figures of various animals in several different statures. Warm lights were fitted inside these figures emphasisingly. The inner glow and contrast against a thick black sky formulated the perfect atmosphere. 4/5 stars.

If asked what i have learnt through this experience admiring the the antics of our earths animals for 10 hours, here are some things that came to my mind.

The smallest pelican is the brown pelican. It is also the only pelican that dives.
The largest pelican is the dalmation pelican. This happens to be endangered.
A pelican's mouth can hold up to 13 litres of water.
The Singapore zoo has the largest collection of primates in the world.
The indonesian porcupine in found in Indonesia.
The hyena's in The Lion King are spotted hyenas( also known as the "laughing hyena").
The seladang is the largest cattle alive.
Tarsiers look like furby. Kill them all.
Walking trails in the safari do not administer to certain enclosures, allowing only the tram riders full access to all the animals.
The tram ride costs $8per person.

I'm tired. Visibility of words thou has just posted have proved negative and attempts to do so are futile. I shall get some sleep.

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Mammal

2006-03-13T21:40:00.000+08:00

The Bird flu has been brought new meaning! Apparently, a stone marten(weasel family) was found on the north German island of Ruegen, apparently sick and presumably already dying. A vet put it down and sent it for further tests only to shock the world with news that the bird flu or more appropriate at present, " bird" flu, has mutated into a form transmitable to mammals. Holy fuck! Fortunately, scientists have not confirmed the adaptability of this viral strain to mammals, including humans. So we're safe for the time being. Anyway, for the benefit of the oblivious, the H5N1 strain threatens to diminish the worlds population by 4 billion should we be hit by the full magnitude of it. Deaths aside, imagine the great fissure it would inflict on the global economy. Damn.

In case some are wondering what the fuck a stone marten is, here is how the straits times puts it.

The size of a large cat, martens are long, slim-bodied carnivores about 60cm in length. They can run very fast over long distances and are extremely agile climbers. They are widely distributed in North America, Europe and Central Asia.

-the straits times

Sounds like a lean mean killing machine to me. Hmmmm. Lets hope they all die.

In local news, I went shopping today. Here are some of the things i bought:

Boardshorts x2 - $134
T-shirts x2 - $51.80
Converse schools shoes - $59 (UP $89)
Bag - $39(UP $69)
Sex bands - $4

So, there we go. I had fun. Today was to weird to comprehend. I spent my morning skating and cycling at east coast before heading to shaw with shearen to meet my mother to go shopping. Soon after i was done, I went to meet shearen's mother with her at paragon. Dinner at parkway before heading home. Tell me my day was normal. The walk home was ushered by a series of deep, puke inductive dizzying spells. I'll be going to the bird park with shearen and her mother. Oh god. Flap flap flap.

Im fatigued. Very.

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Sunday

2006-03-12T13:35:00.000+08:00

Sunday has always been a very busy day for me. That kinda defeats the purpose of it being a public holiday. I've differed from the nominal activities of a Sunday. This includes waking up at 9, slacking, watching japan hour, totally chill and enjoy the day. Instead i have tuition at 8, training at 10 and church at 5( I'm not the biggest fan of church). Smite me.

Yesterday was eventful enough. Jamming commenced with the attendence of imee and shearen. I find that the band gets subconscious nerves when there is an audience. Anyway, a couple of seconds after reagan used the words " head banging action", Jon swung his bass around and oh what contact the headstock made with reagans forehead. A series of " Ah"s and "Ow"s and reagan was on fours clutching a big, bleeding bump(it looked abit like a big pimple). I must add that it was an accident and that Jon did not intentionally deal that paralyzing blow to the head. But........ the tuning pegs on the headstock were BIG metal pegs. The damage was minimal. Head banging thus has been brought to a whole new level.

A matter had just crossed my mind and its amazing perhaps a little un-nerving how a mothers world revolves around her son. The power of love. But oh well, I'll forget whatever i've typed right here in a matter of half an hour. Goodbye realisation, hello oblivion.

Before i get back to my hectic sunday schedule, here is something for everyone.

"The songs of the dead are the lamentations of the living"

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Relations

2006-03-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

Dont bother asking how the topic of the day crossed my mind. But i'd just like to say a few things about some people. So here goes.

My Broken Lullaby: This is our year. Rock on.
Jon: The black.
Reagan: The insane.
Justin: The procastinator.
Abby and Sheldon: All the best together=)
Nicole and Donna: The daughters i never had.Smile.
Nicholas: Son.
Imee: Buddy turned mummaye.
Sky: Its no wonder we stopped talking but sometimes i still wonder why.
Jo: AG 6es!
Munshi: Its a pity i wont be knowing you for too long.
Zafir: Push me, and then just touch me. lol.
Bernice and Joan: The cool and the sucker.
Henry: Fucking Hoe!
Jia Heng, Pakin and Kester: The gay, vulgar and act-shuais.
Bryan: Basses are his forte.
Matt and Jian: Horny 3.
Keith and Zhang and Umesh: 2e pals.
Stephen and Wayne: Fellow Foos. Foo fighters.
Winston: I know where you live.

And last but not least, to Shearen. Thank you for loving me. I dont think words are enough to express how i feel. But i guess you already know. =). I love u.

To those who i've left out, as in the words of nicole, I just wasnt thinking of you within this minute or two. Sorry. Anyway, I just thought i should remember all those who have been a part of my life, be it a huge or minute part of it.

In farewell, I feel vaguely disturbed today. I have the impression its because of the weather. It makes me cranky. Rain o fucking rain.

Let thy peace lie over all.

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Meet the parents

2006-03-05T20:07:00.000+08:00

I have not been blogging. I guess i've just been busy being lazy. lol.

Anyway, for it is the end of the week and i have not blogged in a week, let me just pick out the week's highlights for everyone.

First of all, as my entry title would prompt, i met shearens parents. Not just her parents, but it was a dinner with Jo, Samuel, Jo's mom, Shearens mom, and of course Shearen. lol. We had table bbq at marina. The downside of that day was the fact I don't understand indo, and shearens mom only speaks indo. I really couldn't figure out if that was a good thing or not but i'd rather assume everything went well.

Moving on, i realise how totally crazy I can be when I decide that I should let loose. lol. It was a band outing. Sorta. After carls juniours at marina, we decided we'd play on the slanted travellators. This was classic. 3 big boys sitting on the rubber handrails taking a roller coaster ride on the travellators. This unorthodox kind of fun also induced the emmision of weird sounding calls from all of us. We were whooping and giggling at the sheer dumbness of what we were doing. I even blurted out something like this. "Oh im sitting on a travellator cause my mommy didnt give me any money to go to disneyland." There we go. Oh i must emphasise that there were only 3 of us playing. Jon was looking stern and utterly perplexed at the time. Suck on it.

In other news, I've been put on an official ban on coke. Im not allowed to drink it too often. Apparently every can of coke depletes 30% of my energy level and takes 6 glasses of water to neautralize. It also contains fructose which is supposed to be more fattening than maltose. Forget where i got my facts. But im banned. Laugh at me. HA-HA. Anyway not that i really mind, cause i guess im still allowed to drink coke with the band.

My leg itches. I owe someone a lollipop.

I shall end with something interesting i saw yesterday at citilink mall's branch of new urban male. It was a shirt which reads.

"Im looking for tressure, may i see ur chest?"

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Im in school

2006-02-28T12:50:00.000+08:00

So, im writing this post from the school computer during my social studies lesson. How fun is that. Im just done with doing a mind map on the Sinhalese-Tamil conflicts in Sri Lanka. LOL. Ok, so i was bored.

I shall leave with a random story i once heard from Bryan,

Once upon a time, there was an ugle barnacle. He was SO ugly that everyone died. The end.

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Feature

2006-02-20T20:32:00.000+08:00

There Is
Box Car Racer

This vacation's useless
These white pills aren't kind
I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive
I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9
And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights
I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have
The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you, but you sweared you loved me more

Do you care if I don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight?
Will you think of me?
Will I shake this off, pretend its all okay?
That there's someone out there who feels just like me?
There is

Those notes you wrote me,
I've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought on how to write you back this fall
With every single letter in every single word
There'll be a hidden message, about a boy thatloves a girl

Do you care if I don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight?
Will you think of me?
Will I shake this off, pretend its all okay?
That there's someone out there who feels just like me?
There is

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Sloth

2006-02-20T20:09:00.000+08:00

My irregular entries have been due to the deadly scene of life known as sloth. Sometimes I had lots to say, but sleep proved more attractive.

In any case, I was in church yesterday and my pastor touched on something which coincidentally, has been on my mind for the longest time. He mentioned that it is extremely easy and un-taxing to fake spirituality. Now how do people actually fake spirituality? One of the most common things people do are to spread christianity and church going to ANYONE they have the slightest aqquintance to. They go " praise the lord" at anything and everything and as a result, seem extremely devout and spiritual. They also sometimes purposefully pray in public. These prayers are expressive and vocal. They recite and pray eloquent prayers that boasts flowery language and of course, as they claim, their strong faith.

Now, at this juncture, you might possible be wondering why would anybody want to be like that? No worries, those were my exact same sentiments upon hearing the sermon. The reason i may not know. But it has been shown that people use spirituality as a form of status and power. So there we go.

My point exactly, people should not over-do their religious faith and TRY to spread it like a widespread epidemic. The only people who actually put up no facades are those who actually pray in quiet by themselves without anyone watching as well.

Now if this post is relevant to you? Only you know if your hiding behind a facade which provides spiritual status.

On a lighter note, today has been a pretty good day. I would give it a 7/10.

When i look at you, I wonder to myself how out of the billions of people in the world, I managed to find you. I then smile and tell myself how great all this will be. You make me smile just like that. Loving you.

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Swoosh

2006-02-16T19:00:00.000+08:00

My entry title today was at random. So that explains it in case you don't see any link between my entry today and the word SWOOSH. I just felt swooshy. lol.

Now its been rather long since i've last blogged and i shall start off by leaving everyone with something to think about. Here it goes.

What is the opposite of opposite?

Anyway leave your answers on the tag board and in good time we'll discuss it. Reason being i haven't found a totally unrivalled answer to this as well.

Now, i shall speak a little about my valentines day. Firstly, fuck all teachers who give tests or request the attendence of students on a valentine's afternoon. Like damn it stop being such a pain in the ass. I mean like, i had to do a test and then rush home to change before rushing out to meet shearen again. Despite this, the date made up for any hard feelings i held against the existance of such a day. It was a really cool outing cause we didnt need much words. Just alot of love and sweetness. lol. Thats all i will say. Its MY dirty little secret.

At this juncture, a thought has just manifested itself in my mind. They are not really thoughts but rather very literal sayings on like. Here are two.

All lady teachers have no balls.
All fathers are mother fuckers.

So true isnt it? Chew on it. lol.

Oh yeah. I just realised that the things some people say or do remind me greatly of people born without brains or people with brains for tumors. Unfortunately, the person I have in mind who fits this most honourable postition also assumes the looks of a big ape. I wont go into detail what this big ape with brains for tumors has said or done. But its just the way he speaks, the questions he asks and the total cowardice and childishness of his actions that reflects his intelligence.I could have measured how hollow is skull was. Just that i didnt. lol. You know people say that light travels faster than sound because most people appear bright until they open their mouth to speak. But the ape doesnt fit this subtly comforting description. He looks stupid and IS stupid. He's such a bright spark he glows. Man.

Potato chips and lemon tea by the roadside. Amazing.

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The biggest night in music

2006-02-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

The biggest night in music refers undoubtedly to the night of the grammy's. If that isn't enough, Stevie Wonder has even hailed it the biggest event not only in music, the the whole world. This was followed by a "not-needed" duet with Alicia Keys. Anyway thats not my point.

Greenday won record of the year. It is one of the major awards so yeah. I think u2 deserved whatever they won. Bono is in his own league.

Moving on, here are some things i noticed at the grammy's.

Gorrilaz don't look as hip as they sound.(maybe thats why they dont show their faces)
Madonna does not need to expose so much.
Chris Martin's magic has been lost.
Kanye West needs a thank you list to remember who he wants to thank.(says alot about his intelligence.)
Billy Joe looked so freaking civilised. lol.
Paul Mcartney's FAT drummer looked like he was either gonna collapse or get a seizure and die.
Jennifer Love Hewitt was gorgeous.

So there we go. I particularly like the Kanye West bit. I couldn't differentiate if he was trying to make a joke out of it, or if his brains just failed him. But if it was meant to be a joke, "my oh my was it funny". Seriously I think these rappers have NO talent whatsoever. Their musical inspirations range from sex, women being so hot they cant take it, drugs, their girlfriends, weird whooping, big butts, massive babylons and basically anything with a sexual connotation. Correct me if im wrong. Bono said something very true. The whole point of rock music and the idea of the band is so as not to be manufactured. Only then are u free to sing of your honest feelings.

Now, deviating from the grammy's and towards to local music scene, a thought came to me while watching the commercials for singapore idol featuring taufik, sly, and olinda. When asked what her first impression of sly was, Olinda exclaimed," he looked like a pretty girl from the back". Now, how would she know how a girl would look like. Not like shes been looking like one forever. On the contrary, maybe she does know from the experience of "girl scouting". If u know what i mean.

Think about it.lol. Its been a good week.

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2006-02-07T18:55:00.000+08:00

I Love You Always Forever
Donna Lewis

Feels like I'm standing in a timeless dream
Of light mists, of pale amber rose
Feels like I'm lost in a deep cloud of heavenly scent
Touching, discovering you

Those days of warm rain come rushing back to me
Miles of windless summer nights
Secret moments shared within the heat of the afternoon
Out of the stilness, soft spoken words
(Say it, say it again)

I love you always forever
Near or far, closer together
Everywhere I will be with you
Everything I will do for you

You've got the most unbelievable blue eyes I've ever seen
You've got me almost melting away
As we lay thereUnder a blue sky with pure white stars
Exotic sweetness, a magical time
(Say it, say it again)

Say you'll love and love me forever
Never stop, never whatever
Near and far and always Everywhere and every(thing)

This song reflects very similarly to what we share. This shall be our song.

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Girls

2006-02-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

As quoted from Jon, "girls are troublesome". Now this is a fact in my opinion and sometimes it sucks. But the big difference is, we guys find a way to deal with this "trouble" or to accomodate it. Worse comes to worse, we shut up and bear with it.

However, when a guy is being troublemsome, which i admit we guys do sometimes, girls whine about it all day long, cry about it, blog about it so apparently it seems that their being discreet about it but deep inside they want people to read it and sympathise with them. Sometimes it irks me cause when it comes to matters of the heart, the guy is always wrong. Sure maybe the final blow was dealt by the guy, but people don't look at the chain of events don't they? If ur one of them, FUCK U. If not, please sit back and enjoy this post.

Here is a piece of relatively unreliable piece of evidence but still fairly relevant to this that shows that guys DO something about their problems.

We guys live by a few simple rules.

The girl is always right
If the girl is wrong, refer to rule number 1.

So, it doesnt mean that just cause guys don't cry as much means they are the in the wrong. Sure guys whine, even i do. But not ALL THE TIME.

Enjoy.(taken from justin)

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Oh my.

2006-02-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

Church was like a very repeatitive lesson except that it wasnt totally boring. I was told the story or jesus and the fig tree. For those who dont know it, jesus cursed a fig tree which bore no fruit that no one shall eat from it again, and the next day the tree withered. No, im not saying jesus is a murderer, but the message was that if u pray for something and believe in it, it will be done for you. lol. The power of prayer. Joke or the simple truth, we'll never know. Just have to experience it before we can comment.

I just realised the only reason i haven been playing the last two matches was because the teacher, aka sotong wee, forgot to register me and leon. Thats just fucked up cuz its a waste of my time and a reflection upon him that he is the biggest no brainer to walk earth.
Even coach calls him a kuku bird. Man, how much better can he get. lol.

So lets talk a little bit about my day. It started off pretty damned cause i ran out of wax, which always sucks. But then she made it a point to come down early to see me, which is pretty sweet of her i guess, so its ok. And then!! morning assembly was ushered in by the weirdest bunch of er.... things. They were exchange students from shenyang, china and boy did they look interesting. Seriously, they looked so un-earthly that mars attack the movie would have seemed more realistic. My point

They are geeks.
They look like aliens.
They girls wear skirts so " short" they might as well wear long pants.
Their uniforms were like aprons from the 70's
They speak chinese and thats gotta suck. lol.

So im a little mean. lol. Now tell me if i care.

Its cool that our parents know. I love u. Goodnight.

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Loss of words

2006-02-04T00:02:00.000+08:00

Today was a great day. Things around me started to mend. Friendships reconstructing, burdened hearts relieved, peace unbreached. I love today.

Mention todays date many years from now, I'll remember it as the day dreams came through and the day i was loved beyond words. I have no means of describing how i feel, it was just so special today.

IM HAPPY!!

Lol. your the one. I love u too.

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The things i do when im bored

2006-02-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

I took the time to do a reasonably odd thing. And i realised that the last two post of mine have been on the hour. Timely posts. lol. Okay i guess i was just bored. Goodnight people.

Its bad to sleep unhappy.Give u nightmares and a heavier heart and , oh yes, automatic gastric int he morning cuz u feel sick. Yeap.

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Today

2006-02-01T22:00:00.000+08:00

HAH! ok that was random. Anyway, my mood's highs and lows can be compared to a diagram of a wave, with the anti-clines representing the better parts and the synclines representing the lows.

The start of the day was horrific. Somewhere around geog lesson things rose from the slumps a little and after physics, i had a brief moment with her. We smiled, just like we used to. That was subtle enough, but raised my spirits all the same. Everything was alright till after my match, when i suddenly felt like i had depression clouds for a hat. Damn. And once again, my heart was under arrest. To sum it up, the day ends pretty well for me as i blog. I was granted some much appreciated emotional mercy as i learnt that she was trying really hard to. It touched me and as un-david as this sounds, it was heart warming.

To say a little bit of myself. I realise that im a very trusting person. I trust easily and then i give my heart to that special someone totally. Therefore when something goes wrong, oh boy do i get upset. lol. Then, some would probably realise that the smallest of things elate me. Like a few sweet words, a nice smile, these things have amazing effect on me. Now u would expect a simple person like me to have simple thoughts and think simply. But there would be where u thought wrong. Im really not very straitforward in my thinking at all. I think alot. About weird things and everything that ranges from A-Z.

So if im simple but my thinking is complicated, would u say im simple or complicated? lol. Lets just say im SIMPLY COMPLICATED.

Oh god help me. Im really bleeding from the insides.

Heavy hearts.

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Feature

2006-02-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

My Paper Heart
The all-american Rejects

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
I know moving on is easiest when I'm around you

So bottle up old love,
throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
a year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you

Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can
Waiting, day goes through
My lips are sealed for her
My tongue is tied to a dream of being with you
To settle for less is not what I prefer

So bottle up old love,
and throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
A year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

(du op du op la la la la du op du op la la la la do do do)

Summertime, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down,and so do I to the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold,for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me
Summertime, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down, and so do I to the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am goneAnd spring blossoms you...To me

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How things hurt

2006-01-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

It hurts sometimes when a loved one says that they might not be your loved one. As in, they say that they're not sure if they love you anymore. Trust me, i'd rather be stung by bees or slashed or carve the words " I'm ok" on my arm for the simple reason that physical pain can be cured with emotional comfort. On the contrary, emotional pain is as low as pains can go.

I swear everything in the world would have hurt less. I felt like i was gonna lose her. It was like someone had emptied my stomach and my heart beat so hard i could feel it everywhere. Its like I felt sick, I wanted to vomit.

As much as it hurts, deep inside I somehow have this feelings its gonna be ok. I still have faith in her and I know she'll figure it out soon. I guess i'll be ok, though the perpetual sick and uneasy feeling nvr seems to cease.

I cried.

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Funan

2006-01-31T20:55:00.000+08:00

Funan was weird. 3/4 of the place was closed. Like damn it, is the service industry like lazy or what? I was hoping to look around at some neat earphones and check out the xda 2 atom. Turns out that the only retailers open for business were harvey norman and courts. Perfect.

Zinger for dinner. It was a neat enough family outing, except my oldest daughter is grounded. So she couldnt join us. I hope my dad gets his pda soon. Then i can take over his old phone. U might go, " why take your dads old phone"? Well, my phone sucks, although his is old, it rocks a hundred times better.

Im in a minor dilemna now actually. I cant figure out if i should attend school tomorrow. This is due to an excitement of holiday moods in surplus. lol. This is gay.

I love u just the way u are.

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The Lunar New Year

2006-01-31T14:38:00.000+08:00

Hello. May i take a minute to wish everyone a prosperous lunar new year. lol. Damn i sound old saying that. Anyway this will be my first post in 3 days for i have been away in Malaysia. In any case, i shall now talk a little bit about my 14th chinese new year.

Honestly i felt it was pretty screwed up in the first place cuz i had to leave loved ones behind to go to malaysia. Don get me wrong for CNY is a greatly fun event that happens once a year. But trust me, it would have been perfect if i had her by my side. My aunts and relatives actually asked for her. Its as if im gonna get married. lol. HELLO!! im 16.

Going into details, my reunion dinner was far from the traditional dinner, which u sit down to eat in the evenings. Instead, due to a certain moronic aunts wish to have reunion with her in laws, we had to eat our DINNER at 1.30pm. That is what u call screwed. Like dude, it spoils the fun of a reunion DINNER damn it. In any case, i guess my grandmom's cooking makes up for all the deviations this year.

New year with my fathers side was a enjoyably chaotic mess. 25 Adults and 3 toddlers in one big house. As big as the house is, you would imagine how things were like when everyone gathered in the living room for some fun time. I swear we could have drowned the firecrakers outside. We drowned in shandy in the day and beer in the night, gambled, laughed and screamed the day away. It was cool. I think i shall bring her back one of the next CNY's.

All in all, I had fun. Missed her loads though. It was so much that u could explode sometimes. Its overwhelming to the last bit. Anyway, im back, and im getting tired. Going to see her later lol. Cya all around.

Did u know? The arch-duke of austria whose assasination sparked off world war 1, was called franz ferdinand. lol. Now we all know where a certain Homosexualed-teamed party rock band got their name. And if you didnt know this, well......now u know!! haha.

Everywhere.

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Thousand apologies

2006-01-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

Sorry about the mess my last post is in. Just take ur time to go through it and you wont feel its a mess anymore.

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Walking

2006-01-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

Today was a day of real life fairytales. I used to muse about walking hand in hand with her by the beach as dusk approached. It would be sweet and pointless, full of love and affection. There would be no need for words for our subtle touches would say it all. Throw in a few hugs, circles in the sand, and a really sweet farewell, and there u have it. Wah Lah!

Im overjoyed, under-stood and in love.

Talk about walks and some might get the idea that its a really simple thing. Well it is, but yahoo OR google the word and see what u might get. I did just that and here are some interesting findings.

OTTAWA — Stephen Harper started his first full day in Ottawa as prime minister-designate by taking care of some family business — walking his kids to school.The Conservative leader accepted Gov. Gen. Michaelle Jean’s invitation to form a government in a telephone call late Tuesday, after his party won 124 seats in Monday’s federal election,.Harper’s busy with government transition plans, including drawing up his new cabinet.But he took time to walk nine-year-old son Ben and seven-year-old daughter Rachel to their elementary school in the tony Rockcliffe neighbourhood, about midway between his old residence at Stornoway and his new one at 24 Sussex Drive.Harper refused to take questions during the staged photo-op, suggesting he’d have plenty to say during a scheduled news conference today.The new leader appeared a little stiff — shaking hands with his children as he saw them off.

-Brandon Sun

JANUARY 26 - A child walks away from school and teachers don't even notice he's missing. The boy was supposed to go to an after school program but instead went for a walk. Now the school is making changes to keep it from happening again.
Mari and Steve Southern hate to think about what could have happened to their 6-year-old son Nathan. On most days Nathan walks from his kindergarten class at Peterson Elementary School into the Latchkey room there. On Wednesday, he decided he wanted to walk home. Mari went to Peterson to pick up Nathan and discovered he wasn't there.
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No one noticed Nathan had left until two hours later when someone spotted him roaming around near a used car lot. The good samaritan asked they boy if he was lost and called police.
A school spokesperson says this is a rare event, but not the first time it's happened with Nathan. They say he tried to walk home the previous day but was stopped by his teacher. However, there was a substitute teacher working Wednesday who didn't know about Nathan's earlier attempt.
The incident has the school making some changes. Officials say they now plan to escort children from class to Latchkey to prevent any future problems.

-Kake tv 10

THERE'S a man in my neighborhood who takes daily walks with his son. I first noticed the pair about three winters ago. It was dark out, and I came upon them as I drove around a curve a few blocks from my home.
Deep snow lined the edge of the street, leaving them nowhere to walk but on the road. The father held the son's back and walked along the outside, his son near the edge.
Neither wore reflective clothing, and they walked toward me on the right. The father wore a spotlight strapped to his head, but they walked so slowly I didn't notice the light moving. In the dark of night, I mistook it for a lamplight at the end of someone's driveway.
I was almost upon them before I realized my mistake. Neither seemed anxious to move over as I approached, and I swerved to miss them.
As winter wore on and the snow along the edges deepened, the road narrowed. But the father and son continued their walks. Night after night I'd pass them, the father along the outside of the road, his son near the edge with his father's hand upon his back.
Their pace was always slow. It became more and more difficult to avoid hitting them as I passed, and they never made an effort to move out of the way. The father's indifference for his son's safety annoyed me. I silently cursed his carelessness.
As winter turned to spring and the days grew longer, their walks continued. Though the snow had melted, they still walked on the road rather than along the roadside. Their pace was still slow, and the father still walked along the outside, the son along the edge with his father's hand upon his back.
But by the light of day, I could see that while the father's left hand always held his son's back, his right always held his son's arm. He wasn't just holding him; he was holding him up. He was steadying his walk.
Spring turned to summer, summer to fall and fall into winter again. Father and son walked day after day, rain or shine, daylight or darkness. Over the months, I came to realize that what I had perceived as indifference in the father was patience.
The son's steps are short and uncertain. He stares straight ahead. His expression is blank. The father's is too, but there is kindness in his eyes. There's a sense of reassurance in his steps. He nods as I pass.
I've often wondered where they live and where they came from. I wonder about the mother. I try to imagine what sort of condition the son must have. I wonder what their lives must be like.
But I don't think I want to know. I don't need to know to understand. I just want to know that their walks will continue. And that I'll continue to notice.

-Becky Stoppa, anchorage daily news

So there we go. Hoped u have enjoyed the above stories all based on walks. lol. Take a walk with a loved one if u have not done so. It makes the day a brighter one.

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Feature

2006-01-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

She's always a woman
Billy Joel

She can kill with a smile
She can wound with her eyes
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies
And she only reveals what she wants you to see
Yeah, she hides like a childBut she's always a woman to me

She can lead you to love
She can take you or leave you
She can ask for the truthBut she'll never believe you
And she'll take what you give her, as long as it's free
Yeah, she steals like a thiefBut she's always a woman to me

Oh-she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Oh-and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind

And she'll promise you moreThan the Garden of Eden
Then she'll carelessly cut youAnd laugh while you're bleedin
'But she'll bring out the bestAnd the worst you can be
Blame it all on yourselfCause she's always a woman to me

She is frequently kind
And she's suddenly cruel
She can do as she pleases
She's nobody's fool
But she can't be convicted
She's earned her degree
And the most she will doIs throw shadows at you
But she's always a woman to me

Take a minute to understand the lyrics.

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History

2006-01-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

Fear is a powerful emotion. I know that because i felt the most powerful form of it tonite. I thought i was going to lose someone. Someone that i love. For as much as i try to show it, i can never express fully how much she exactly means to me. But for as much as words can go, i'd die for her and if she was gone, i'd be crushed to tears and a sick void of feelings that will always be left empty.

I experiened happiness like no other today. I swear i could have flown. But its all burried somewhere in history now. I ruined it. And now i scare myself to death and i sob myself to sleep. Maybe if i'd been more positive, I'd be going to sleep knowing everything was perfect and that we had understood each other more. This just goes to show im not a very perfect person. Guess i'll not worry overly. She wouldnt want me to be upset or come to school in a horrible black face. Its the new year celebrations tomorrow and i will usher it in with faith and a better attitude. If things are weaker now, i'll build them up again. She trusts i will never let her fall, and i wont.

For your information, it was quoted my Mr koh tong seah that if u gave every alphabet a numerical value from 1 to 26, the word attitude would actually add up to 100%. The gist of it is that good attitude will give u a 100% in life. Say hi to the new age philosopher.lol

I cried.

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Understanding

2006-01-25T21:16:00.000+08:00

A week ago i was left going to school feeling worried and bothered about what was going to happen. Now we're understanding each other very much bettter. Theres probably more to work on, and im sure she'll agree. So yeah, it'll be great.

I have spent the last hour staring at this page you are presently looking at thinking of what to blog about. And then i realised that if i have nothing to say, then i shouldnt say anything at all. Lol. Its simple, really, if u have to think about how u wanna blog or what your gonna say, it probably wont be true anymore. So if anyone cant think of what to blog about, dont. It wouldnt be the same as if it came from your heart.

The heart is the strongest muscle in the body. Take a minute to understand this factual statement.

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My Family

2006-01-24T21:26:00.000+08:00

A family is something great and comforting to have even though it might now be a real family with blood ties. As quoted in the disney animation Lilo and Stitch, "ohana means family and family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten". So yea, cool.

I have nothing much to say about today. In general, today was a tiring day, but it was happy. You see, although we didnt tok much today or spend hours walking on beaches together, I feel like i have so much faith in her. I know how she feels even without communicating, and i know that she feels the same way too. This is a beautiful thing of trust, faith and love.

P.S: I love u and i need u. Love me as i do, and trust me with your heart. One day we'll make it.

I'd love it to rain right now. Maybe snuggle in a corner of the couch eating strawberries while it pours mercilessly outside. Thats'll be lovely. Or perhaps just a walk on the beach would content me enough.

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The monstrosities of math

2006-01-23T21:08:00.000+08:00

Mathematics is a so stupid that it is only enjoyed by the smart people who CAN master it and thus, love it.

Anyway i shall divert from my usual blogging sense to speak a little bit about today. Apparently, she wasnt too happy to see me after training. Neither would she say why? Instinctively and naturally, with my patience wearing thin, i walked away. That sucks. It is the small things like that i CANNOT stand. These " im not happy so im not talking to you" kinda things really make me lose my rag sometimes. I try to control this anger, but maybe im just a little too conscious about these subtleties.

Another thing i cannot deal with is unreasonable thoughts and actions agaisnt me. Sometimes these comments come as casual remarks from a loved one, but nevertheless, it stirs me up inside and i cannot find peace for the next couple of hours or so.

Altogether, today was almost total bullshit, and its all because of careless remarks and insensitivities. Yet, i was happy enough to just see her again. I miss her though i see her in school everyday. Maybe when i see her tomorrow, i'll be glad, and hopefully she'll be glad, and if she's not, I'll be there to make her glad.

Words cannot express how proud i am that she is finally stepping back into some school activities. It made me feel at ease seeing her do something else.

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Feature

2006-01-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

Empty Apartment
Yellowcard

Call me outYou stayed inside,
One you loveIs where you hide,
Shot me down As I flew byCrash and burn,
I think sometimesYou forget where the heart is.

Answer no to these questions,
Let her go, learn a lesson,
It's not me, you're not listening,
Now, can't you see something's missing,
You forget where the heart is.

Take you away from that empty apartment,
You stay, and forget where the heart is,
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay.

Waking up from this nightmare,
How's your life?What's it like there?,
Is it all what you want it to be?,
Does it hurt when you think about me?,
And how broken my heart is.

Take you away from that empty apartment,
You stay, and forget where the heart is,
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay.

It's okay to be angry and never let go.
It only gets harder the more that you know.
When you get lonely if no one's around.
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down.
We came together but you left alone.
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own.
Maybe someday I will see you again,
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend.

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moral correctivity and the modern society

2006-01-22T20:18:00.000+08:00

I was at church today and the speaker quoted a famous christian author regarding something he had said about our purpose in work. This is how it went.

Our goal in work should not be money or possesion but for the common good of people and gods glory.

-Richard Foster.

This is a truly noble and inspirational message and it is morally correct. However, in our modern society and this endless rat race, I cannot say that this statement is truly relevant to us. The modern world is all about money, and as quoted in one of Abba's songs, "its a rich man's world". Now that is a piece of reality. No disrespect meant to my own religion, but i find it hard sometimes to apply these things into life as in this case, i do not find the message realistic. Just like communism, these "for the better good" ideas do not really work out.

And guess what? I was wrong about my previous post regarding the weather. It POURED.

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chinese new year and haircuts

2006-01-22T13:16:00.000+08:00

Apparently, the chinese new year spirit is already within everyone. I went for the haircut i was compelled to go for today and i got charged an extra $2 for it. Do not get me wrong. $2 is not alot, but i just cant see why they are charging extra because its chinese new year period. I mean, its still ONE WHOLE week away.Damn.

Tuition was a retarded affair for i saw no improvement in my proficiency of the language. It just got me reading and speaking something practically alien to me for an hour and a half. Honestly, why do something you cant do or like? And even if u could do it or liked it, who'd appreciate it?

My mother has been making my drink ginger water this past week. Seriously if she doesnt stop, i dunno what i'd do. Its so "yummy" i could drink it everyday. lol.

Its hot outside. Looks like i can get forget about the hoody at church.

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today

2006-01-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

Today as seen in my title....was a weird day. Firstly i got high on air after jamming which led embarrassingly to the fixation of "are u weird"? stares upon me by my fellow bandmates.lol.ok gay.What followed this event was weirder...i went shopping....with my mother and father...to far east.lol. Like, they looked outta place, but oh well.

Apparently i must be love-struck...cuz i bought a white shirt. That is apparently the most unlikely thing for me to do in case any of u reading this have not noticed. And, if that was not amazing enough, she bought a black jacket, which is totally unlike her by the way. But no complaints, i guess the spirit of accomodation and love is just kicking in.

She's everything i want and everything i need.

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a new blog

2006-01-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

ok...so heres my new blog...it needs work....but this is just for now.... so yea...its gonna be like really up soon...hopefully...come back again when

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